Honestly I think I’m traumatized from it…. like even the memory of and talking about it makes me cry. Nothing is ever going in my nose again. Never.
I had a terrible night….
So I’ve got a chest tube in rn to drain fluid from my lung (because the lymphoma makes my body unable to regulate that kind of stuff) and a couple days ago I had a chest xray to see if it could be removed. Instead they see that I have a lot of air in my stomach which is pushing up on my diaphragm and making it hard for me to breathe. It also made it difficult to look at my lungs properly in the xray. So yesterday I was supposed to have a tube inserted through my nose into my stomach to drain the air out, which I was told would be an uncomfortable process. It was originally supposed to happen about 9p-10p after I ate dinner so the air could drain while I was sleeping and the only meal I’d have to skip was breakfast. Then I was told it was moved to 11p. In the end no one came around until 12:30, and even on morphine that was single handedly the most painful thing I’ve ever experienced. In the end the tube was never inserted and I cried myself to sleep.